argh........... bingit nya!!!!! why must she come n meet at the same place tomorrow??? fish!! shit!!! argh!!!!!!!!! nenek, tolong cucuku!!!! shld i go or not?? that's the thing!!!! haizz... i want to go but she really spoilt my entire event.... she kol me and i go n picked up.. stupid me... thought was my friend but thank god, i was quick enough to spot her name and quickly put down the phone.. *phew*

nenek told me to face her... fight back whenver she shoot me but i... haizz... i cant do it... simply cant coz that's how i am.. a meek n timid gal who simply afraid of fighting back......... i guess i must change the way i am... i am in dilemma... want to blame keemeng for informing her... also cannot... coz he don noe anything bout this..... haizzz........

SHLD I GO OR NOT????

Updated@12:24 PM

Iliya Smiling :)

Chubby Iliya

yesterdae nv went to skool.. haizz.. don felt like aniwae... so "chill" out at home until christine n jing IM... they also nv attend class seh.... but instead of "chilling" at home.. they "chill" at skool lib.. muakahha.. they cannot go home coz scared of parent... hahaha... so they kol me out to chill at JP.. haha... of course i want coz near my place... if not forget it then... *oops* hehehe

so met them at ard 12pm at Boon Lay... went to ate at banquett as they were hungry.. at first i don want to eat but the 2 of them physo me eat japanese food... teriyaki chicken set meal.. *yummy2* cant resist so end up buying... we walked2 ard JP.... the best one was playing arcade.... gerek man!!... muakaha... bought some little stuffs here n there n n we chiaoz at ard 3pm...

Updated@8:14 AM

Yesterdae went out with Mr Parker... to catch a movie at Marina Center.. we watched Charlie n the Chocalte Factory... his treat... I say don need but he insisted.. haizz... thanks a lot Mr Parker :) the show was hilarious... cant stopped laughing whenver the Oompalopas started to sing for the naughty kids.. they were damn cute... muakahah...

The movie ended at ard 1830.. then we headed to the food court to have our dinner... we sat outside so that we cld catched the scenery outside... we cld see the see the overview of the esplanade, the peaceful Spore River, the Merlion, etc.. it was VERY NICE esp at night... it was very romantic.. muakaha.. cld see the lights n it was fantastic... after finished our dinner, we headed to the esplanade...cant wait to go there as I nv went there b4.. went to the rooftop and it was splendid!!! the cooling breeze was so nice.. felt that wanna stayed there seh.. hehe.. close my eyes n can feel something inside me.. words cant explain it.. we chated n talked bout our life.. anything that come out of our minf.. wanna walked along Spore River but it was kinda crowded... so scrapped the idea...

then we headed home... he "cheated" me twice seh..first, at the movie.. when i wanna pay for the popcorn thingy.. he say later can pay him.. then went i wanna pay him.. he say don need n keep it for the next time.. *hmmph**.. second time... was sending me back home.. the train reached his destination first n i say good bye to him.. but he say nv mind, i sent u back home.. i paiseh already n say it's ok, i can go back myself but he insisted.. so i say ok but untill boon lay mrt ONLY!!.. he agree.. reached already.. he say untill below.. i just smiled.. reached below he said until the interchange.. reached interchange.. he boarded the bus with me!! Gosh!!! i was speechless but there he was laughing at me... *hmmph*

Overall, the outing was fun, memorable n had a wonderful time with Mr Parker :) thanks alot for the treat n sending me back home.. :)

Updated@12:14 PM

today lesson so boringlah.... haizz... simply uninteresting.... and not my type... wat else but OS!!!!!! lengthy resources.. with nothing go into my head... i'm just going to take it easy... *chebah*...j ust relax throughout the lesson... and tup2.. the end of the day..

just got many favourite malay song => Relaku Pujuk from Spider... credits go to Nazira... she is my source of song.. muakaha... terima kasih byk2..... lain kali... kite minta lagi ok!!! lol... tomorrow will be having my inter class captain ball tournament.... a pity nazira cannot make it... go malaysia... (p.s. gi malaysia jgn lupa bawa balik buah-buahan since u going to the fruit farm.. hehe)

Java Ut was not that bad either... except for the last qn wich i believe KILL's everyone.... 2 down n 1 more UT to go... yeah!!! then can relax at 1 corner... hehehe

oklah.. nothing else to update... *chaio*


'Forget the Past, Enjoy the present and Indulge in the future'

Updated@10:15 AM

finally Database and Webby UT 4 are over!!! a huge relief... database ut just now was not that bad as i expected... managed to do it without any difficuly except for 1-2 questions.... hope to get a B or so for the UT but nevertheless will be expected the worse... =)

as for today class... kinda weird... having java lesson today but without coding.. imagine java lesson without coding!!! hmm... a bonus for me.. hehehe.. but actually.. frankly speaking... went i look at the problem statement... i am looking forward to creating the differnent classes and eagerly waiting for the fac to say " ok... go ahead" but to my dissapointment.. don need to create anyhting for today... sob... sob... sob... i guess maybe next week then need to create the classes...

for now... bored in class. haizz.. don noe wat to do... waiting for the fac.. but until noe nv appear... ok.. he is there... i saw him.. ok.. gtg...

Updated@10:35 AM

got a motivation msg from Mr Parker... after finished reading it... i felt one kind... i finally going to forget about her... and now the level is at 90%... once it reached 100%.. i am going to start a new life... a brand new life without the spirit of her... i will just totally forget about her... just treat her someone who i don noe... nv met before... i think i am ready for it... like wat sue had say to me... this thing cannot go on forever... and i shld move on and look what's there for me n "anoymous"....

having internet connection since i came back from skool yesterday.. tried connecting but to no availed... went to macdonald just now ard 2+... but also got problem connecting.... went home n try again.. finally it works at ard 4+...3 words to describe it => My Internet Sioew!!!! uhuhhu!!!

stress this few day... like wat i had said the previous post... having 3 UT's next week.... stress man... cramp brain... headache here n there... since this is the last UT... i want to give my ever ever best i can... eventhought they are very though indeed... i will just give a shot... just give my best :)

oklah... wanna get back to my revision... take care ppl...

Updated@6:38 AM

uhuhuh peeps!!! i am back.... today class was like.. WAH!!! "alot" of ppl.....12ppls = 2 teams... the rest all cabut go Sentosa.. they asked me to go but don want ar... i am planning to take my off next fri.. hahaha...

since it was only 2 teams... expected it to end early... my motivation level was quite high + with today problem was quite straight forward... i am looking forward for it.. but guess wat!!! the facilitator destroy it!!! everything I expected was upside down!!! instead of finishing ard 2+.. it finished ar 3+... wat the hell man!!!!! seriously, i was quite confident (wah!!! confident seh!! lol...) that my team can do well... having to come up with the story board and the sitemap.. it was quite straight forward rite?? but he!!! wah!!! pissed off with him man.. ar... don really bother to write everyting he did to us here... getting more n more pissed of with him... thank god, i will not be seeing him next week... definitely, next week will be more terrible then today.. having to create the website with the design that we had come out today!!! haha... gd luck to the rest.. (pss: hey ziera... tak ya dtg ar next fri... kla kau tak dtg.. amcm kite physco team kite org tak mu dtg!!... hahaha.. biar padan dgn si muka TULIP tu!!!) in the class just now... took some pics with ziera... haha.. fun..




























more and more UT coming up next week... 3 UT's in a row next week... haizz... there goes my championship with the rest.... database.... java... os.... oh gosh.... haizz.... fri, plan to go out with my sec skool frend... watch movie, etc... but haven confirm yet... then sat.. also go out with my another sec friend... watch movie also... i going bankrupt liao... hehehe... but it's ok... once in a life time.. so it's worth it.. esp catching up with my sec skool frend :)

Updated@4:30 PM

today shag man... haizz... kinda of lazy wanna come skool. pakal ada test... kalau tak... i will be now at home.. my whole body is aching here n there + sleepy.. 2 more weeks left before holidays... sound near but feel like still long... starting to clear leave.. planning which day is the most suitable day for me to clear.. thinking3.......

these few days felt like one kind.. the most hottest want that untill now i can feel the heat was definitely the controversial between me n victoria ... seems like everyone started to noe bout it... haizz... everything shld be fine but she just wanna find trouble with me out of no reasons!!!! blame yrself for watever is happening... but at some point of time... i blame myself too... haizz... life is soo miserable... and unexpected too!!! she kol me yesterday nite.. thinking weter to pick up or not but in the end.. i just rejected it.. vow to myself not to even speak to her or got to do anything with her.... to u... i declare the end of our friendship n sorry (my last sorry) if i been harsh to u or wat... i have enough of this... thank q...

btw.. below are some of the pics that r taken during NDP 2005:

















L to R: Xue Hua, Devi, me n Huijing















I ask them to have an imaginary pose but look at them? Still look at the camera.. haizz
















Mummy n Daughter

Updated@10:21 AM

I HATE U TO THE CORE VICTORIA!! U R JUST ONE F***ING IRRATATING N IDIOTIC GAL!!!

GET OUT N SCRAM YR WAY OUT OF MY LIFE!!! U JUST CANT ACCEPT THE FATE THAT U R CURRENTLY FACING NOW!! U R JUST ONE BLOODY LOSER!! FACE IT MAN!!!!

Updated@9:44 AM

went for my heritage walk yesterday at raffles... it was like an amazing race where u have to go to every checkpoint to collect yr stamps as well as answer some questions without taking any transports... have to go there on foot!!! gosh, my leg mcm nak tercabut sak... go to places like cliffiord pier, art museam, central fire station, ford canning, supreme court, war memorial park n many more... foo!!! n the worse part was that we don even noe where were some of the places located!! goodness... wen we asked one of the passerby where is clifford peir, the lady asked,

Lady: " R u Singaporean?"
We: "Yes"
Lady:, "Wah, u live in Singapore also don where is clifford pier"
We: (laughing) n we say, "We r really a true Singaporean!!"

we laughed till out heart until all the people looked at us look one kind... hehe.. while walking, saw alot of angmoh, very the handsem lor!! my heart melt straight away when one of the angmoh horn his bike at me.. uhuhuh!!! and i smile back.. lol....

We finished eveything at ard 730pm n went to have our dinner at the Macdonald since we got about an hour before starting the lucky draw, firewerk, etc... wat a day man at the mac!! he charged me full amt when i give him a discount coupon of 4 set. wat a gong man!! then ask he about this matter, n he like one idiot man there.. his collegues came n help him.. he also another gong2... they shld return me something that cost me ard $2.60 but guess wat,, he gave me 4 large fries!! uhuh!!! that cost more than $2.60.. haha... we just took it without saying anything... lol..

christine n devi won a lucky draw each... so lucky man... then firewerk began... it was sooo nice.. my second time watching another firewerk...went back at 930pm... in the train... as i was alone... read my msg n stumbled upon HER MSG which she send me on fri... my heart is burning n i felt like scolding her the 'F' word n 'lubang a**'... she is testing my patience n i think i am losing it!!! wat the hell u scold me that 'F' word??!!! n wat the hell u blamed me for watever he is doing??!!! back off ar u!! scram out of my way U IDIOT!!!!!!

Updated@11:15 AM

uhuhu ppl!!! just finished my journal.. so here i am updating my bloggy... hmm... ok.. yesterday championship with the 3 musketeers were canceled due to 2 reasons. one because our dearest sue fall sick and secondly it was raining... to sue.. hav a speedy recovery and hope we can resume our championship next week.. looking forward to that :) at night, try to feed my kittiens with the milk which was bought by my bro at the vet in the morning.. fuyooh, i had a very very hard time feeding them the milk in the bottle!! i thought it was easy as feeding the babies but NOT!!! imagine feeding one kitten took me about 45 mins to finish a 30ml of milk?? OMG!!! fed up with them but have to be patitience.. there r just an animals and aniwae, god teach us to be patience... lol... but overall, i can say that it was fun lah feeding them.. jakun katakan... muakahah

today lesson was like.. haizz.... better don say... spoilt my mood... everything cock up last min.. in the end.. nv really finished wat we were supposed to do.. haizzz... but it' ok.. wat done is done... nothing can be done now!!! somemore my hotmail is giving me problem since yesterday.. cannot even open my messages n delete them... wat the..... haizz... finished class and quickly do my stuffs n headed back home.. wanna cabut from my cca... hahah.. but went to JP for a while to return my lib book + roaming ard JP.. it's been a long time since i went JP.. bought a skirt, finally.... plan to but 1 thing every month... must plan my budget already.. saw sarah werking at one of the shop which i tink no name ar.... omg... shocked man to c her... wen i saw her, i was stunned for a moment.. don noe wat to say.. talk a bit then i went off.....

cant wait for nx nx week.. going chalet and the best part is.. i am skipping skool for 2 days.. uhuhu.... really excited to go there but i tink don b too excited coz later what we plan will not turn out well.. hmm.. + heard a good news from my uncle bout the werk.. cant tell u guys.. haha... EPL starting tomorrow... uhuh... cant wait to c the like of park jing sung n van der ser => the newbies in their famous red shirt...also the likes of rooney n ronaldo... let's do it baby!!!

btw need yr help.. anyone know how to answer these 2 questions??

1) Why do clouds turn grey when it is about to rain?

2) Why do clouds turn orange when it is about to rain at night?

Updated@6:44 PM

one word to describe todae lesson.... SUCKY!!!!!!!!!!! goodness... terrible SQL todae... i mean really really terrible.... have to include the trigger thing... merepek2 ar... gosh!!! + the new fac was like... lembek2... soft2.... haizz.... but one ting is that she is gorgeous.... phewee!!! btw, I have finally managed to complete my CE points... uhuhhhu... but still got a few more points to go for the other two criteria... uhuhuh!!!!

have a chat with sheikh bout this gal.. hahhaa... wat seh sheikh.. u thought i was in cahoot with her is it?? i don even noe her sak... + adding the rong person in the msn.. paiseh sak... and all thanks to u sheikh... aniwae... how was yr plan to change or shld i say scrap down yr blog?? haha...

not sure wat time class will end todae.... but will be having my SA general meeting.... not sure wat time finish but i am hoping that it will end a.s.a.p coz i want to prepare for my championship with nenek, sue and syed... uhuhu.. dah semangat ni.... and sue... bout yesterday.. haizz.. i don noe ar how to say.... haizz.. in dilemma..... wat u say is true but don noe how to face it... haiz... life.... life... life... this is how life can be!!!

Updated@12:59 PM

i am still feeling lethargic rite now... after 1 whole day at marina yesterday + berjemuran di tengah mata hari.. waduh... "shiock"!!! the atmosphere yesterday was fantastic... especially when the firewerk started... super duper!! i cant believe that i was shouting ontop of my world... really shout!!! after that i felt a sore in my throat... padan ngan muka kau kan.. but thank god... i didnt lose my voice.... haha..... everything finished at ard 830pm.. had to scan out card before going for our CE POINTS... thought of having our dinner but changed our mind as we were feeling sweaty and tired... headed home then and reached home ard 10+...

started to ransack my bro goodie bag and wen i found out that alot of things that he have i don have.. i was like... huh?? wat is this?? but 1 think we have but they don have is KFC!!!! uhuhuhuh!! we get to eat KFC!!! boohooo!!!

my uncle have offer me a job for 6days... i think i am going to take it as i need money... for the 6days i can earn $300 sak... who can give me sak that amount of $$? eventhough the hours are quite long but i think i am going to endure it just for the sake of that $$... i have alot of things in mind to buy.... clothes... shoes.... bags... and also changing my hp.. but i guess its not enough... haizz... i have been dreaming of that phone.. 3230 nokia phone... haizz.. wen can i get it??

polar and mini have opened their respectives eyes... uhuhu.. among the 3.. coco had make quite an improvement... been the first to open it eyes eventhough they were suppose to open it 1 week or so after they were born.. i guess polar is not that well... doesnt really want the milk and often idiling ard alone... bapa kau tak guna ar.. body weight also very light unlike the other 2 which i can say quite plump.. its ok.. tomorrow my bro will be bringing u to the vet for a checkup... i want to go but too bad.. i have class... haizz....

Updated@10:54 AM

todae she msg me AGAIN!!! and with that msg, it's already makes me angry and annoyed with her early in the morning!! i don noe now how many times she msg me already.. i am kinda pissed of wif her.. she is sooo irratatin... and yesterdae.. she send me a pic of her through mms to me.. wat the fish?? u tink funny is it?? i don noe wat to do with her.. she had been disturbing me most of the time.. msging me with all of the nonsences thing... u can go ahead and waste yr sms but look here.. i am not going to bother replying to that bloody "fishing" msg!!!

i thought of changing my number... but if i change... it will be troublesome... if i don change... she will keep on msging me wif all the nonsences thing.. haizzz.. dilemma... dilemma... dilemma...

Coco hav finally opened his eye.. his eye is sooo cute and adorable.... i am loving it... cant wait for the other 2 to open their eyes... and once they are able to walk... look wat's going to happen... muakahha.... bye2 mama kiki.. i am going to bring polar, mini and coco away... uhuhuh!!!!

Updated@12:46 PM

as i was idling ard at home... suddenly my mind were thinking about my selection module for sem 2... haizz... before i submitted the selection module last week... i was in dilemma... should i opt for an elective or not?? my heart told me it was 50-50... some part say go ahead.. some part say no.... i want to take an elective of either Sports Event Management or Sports Psychology but at the same time i am worried weter can i cope it?? my project werk have not even completed... + with the rest of my module for the upcoming sem was like sucky... i tink twice bout it.. finally i decided not to opt for any module... sob... sob... sob... there goes my Sports module.... :( Below are the module that i am going to take for the upcoming sem...

Module Title

C121 Data Communications & Networking
C201 Patterns, Structures and Algorithms
C202 Systems Analysis and Design
C203 Web Application Development

I received an email from this fac that i did not attend the AIDS talk in skool.. I was like.. wat?? hey helo.. i did attend ok... i was soo angry with that bloddy idiotic students who did not scanned my card properly... and now the rj question was not released to me... and tomorrow is the deadline for submission.. and that bloddy fac... did not even bother to reply to my email.... wat the hell man!!!! i don care... i will just ask the question from my frend and going to submit it by hook or by crook!! argh... wat a day!!!!

Updated@6:22 PM

my short holiday had just started todae... national day holiday for 5 days.. till wed... uhuhu!!!! my whole day todae have been kept occupied with my new kittens... i love looking at them.. their innocent looking look.. their cute little face.. i kept carrying them but was scolded by my mum many times... muakahah... i cant resisit carrying them.. don noe y.. my itchy hand will everytime take them n cuddle them in my arm...

I have come out a name for them in mind but kinda funny ar their name... Polar, Mini and Coco... hmm.. still in the process of discussing and deciding their name.. but to me, that name kinda suit them.. hehe...

not sure later wat i wanna do but seems like i have nothing to do... i am suppose to revise back my sign language but kinda lazy... my mind keep saying, " nvmlah.. later can revise or nvmlah... still got time to revise"... but later and later, until mon night.. heheh....

I think I kinda miss him... it's getting stronger n stronger day by day.. night by night... i am not suppose to miss him but cant resist... haizzz...


i`m n0t suppose to love u
i`m n0t suppose to care
i`m not suppose to live my life
wishing u were there

i`m n0t suppose to wonder
where u are and what u do
i`m sori i just cant help myself
cause i hav fell in love with u

i`m thinking 0f uin my sleepless solitude night
if its wrong to love you
then my heart juz won`t let me be rite
c0s i' m drowned in u
and i won`t pull thru
without u by my side

i may not get to see u
as 0ften as i like
i may not get to hold u
in my arms through the night
but deep in my heart i truely know
u are the one that i love
and i cant possibly let u go

Updated@6:48 PM

Updated@3:37 PM

The time is 1200am sharp, on the Wed morning... After 2 hrs of painful labor.... it finaly arrived in this beautiful world!!! WELCOME TO SINGAPORE!!! hehe... kiki had just given birth to 4 adorable little kittens but sad to say that one didn't managed to make it into this world...

I am extremely delighted and happy with the arrival of these cute kittens... (luckly, i got borrow digi cam from my skool.. so can captured this beautiful moment.. but i find this amazing... i don noe ar but yesterday, out of sudden i have the urged to borrow the digi cam.. i guess maybe, i got the feeling the kiki going to give birth.. hehehe) happy because I witnessed it with my own eyes and it was like WOW!!! unbelievable eventhough i only slept at 4am and woke up at 8am this morning... it started of at 950pm on Tue night... her "waterbag" started to burst... but she was in labor like for two hrs before her eldest child was born... it was painful to see her the way she was yesterday... but wat touch me was that before she wanted to give birth... she wanted her husband to be by her side... the way she called him... omg.... i felt like crying!!!! if her husband move to else where.. she will follow even though i can see that she was extremely in pain..

1200, the arrival of the first child.... 1230, the arrival of second child which didn't make it but glad it was able to see the world for a while before it was gone.... 1250, the arrival of the third child and finally at 0120, the fourth child....

Updated@9:44 AM

uhuhu.... just went to check my UT for every module.... so far only the grade for 1 module is out which is OS!!!! i was so schocked to see my result for OS!!! as u all noe... i HATE OS!!!!! then went the first i saw my grade.... goodness!!! i get a B for it.. ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! i don believe it... as UT goes by... i am happy that i am improving for the UT... but nevertheless i STILL HATE OS!!!!! hahaha....

hmm... todae lesson was sucky!!!! ANIMATION!!! i hate it.. even though i fancied animation and eager to learn bout it.. but goodness sak... it was soo tedious... i catch no ball!!!! haizzz.... tweening lah.... action script lah... whatever lah... left with only 3 more weeks and that's it babe!!! enjoy!!! planning to have a chalet with my "family" during the sept probably... my friend is having this coupon which only charge at $80 for 3D/2N! at one of the chalet in pasir ris!! it was soo cheap.... but this is just a plan only.. don noe weter going or not... but seriously... i am looking forward for it....

oh ya.. btw.. i have receive this email from my frend about this story.. it is quite meaningful... hope u guys can spent some time reading it:

A long time ago, there was a huge apple tree. A little boy loved to comeand play around it everyday. He climbed to the treetop, ate the apples,took a nap under the shadow...heloved the tree and the tree loved to play with him. Time went by...the little boy had grown up and he no longer played around the tree every day.

One day, the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad. "Come and playwith me" the tree asked the boy. "I am no longer a kid, I do not playaround trees any more" the boy replied."I want toys. I need money to buythem." "Sorry, but I do not have money...but you can pick all my apples and sell them. So, you will have money." Theboy was so excited. He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily.The boy never came back after he picked the apples. The tree was sad.

One day, the boy who now turned into a man returned and the tree wasexcited "Come and play with me" the tree said. "I do not have time to play.I have to work for my family. We need a house for shelter. Can you helpme?" "Sorry,but I do not have any house. But you can chop off my branchesto build your house." So the man cut all the branches of the tree and lefthappily. The tree was glad to see him happy but the man never came backsince then. The tree was again lonely and sad.

One hot summer day, the man returned and the tree was delighted. "Come andplay with me!" the tree said. "I am getting old. I want to go sailing torelax myself. Can you give me a boat?" said the man. "Use my trunk to buildyour boat. You can sail far away and be happy." So the man cut the treetrunk to make a boat. He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.

Finally, the man returned after many years. "Sorry, my boy. But I do nothave anything for you anymore. No more apples for you ..." the tree said."No problem, I do not have any teeth to bite" the man replied. "No moretrunk for you to climb on" "I am too old for that now" the man said. "Ireally cannot give you anything... the only thing left is my dying roots"the tree said with tears. "I do not need much now, just a place to rest. Iam tired after all these years" the man replied. "Good! Old tree roots arethe best place to lean on and rest, Come, come sit down with me and rest."The man sat down and the tree was glad and smiled with tears...

Updated@8:05 PM

Updated@9:59 AM