In less than 12 hours time, a new year will arrive... indeed, 2005 have left me with lots of memories.. be it memorable or not... the good memories will of course i remember.. as for the bad one, of course not to remember it again n hopefully it will not haunt me in the future..

2005 have a lot of ups and downs for me as well as my family... there isnt much happiness in our family.. i just hope that whatever happened in 2005 will not happen again to my family in 2006.. i just cant bear to see it again.. it soo heart wreaking to see the condition of my family esp during this year hari raya.. as for the ties among us, i hope that the relationship between our family will improve significantly.. my 2 brothers => may they find peace among them..

i noe hari raya puasa for 2006 is quite far away but i got the feeling that its gonna be better than 2005... with my elder bro having a full time job for now and having something assure in his pocket, we don need to worry bout that "problem".. my relatives had been a great help to us esp mak ngah and family and mak jang... without them, i don noe wat will happen to us.. thank u to them...

my mum => she has been working damn hard for us... mon to sun.. even holidays she work... sometimes 12 hours even... she don even have time to rest... she every time told me how hard her werk was, how she endure the pain in her leg, her whole body to be exact.. as her only daughter, what i can do is to help her massage her, attend to her needs, help out with housewerk... that's all i can do to help release her burden.. really heart breaking to see her slogging her way to meet end needs.. sometimes i even quarrel with her which i really regretted... i noe she is doing all this for our family... she told us that she will only quit her job after we 3 have start werking and have a stable income.. then she will have a very good rest n enjoy her old days.. but that will be in few years time.. which means she will have to continue werking for the next few years.. haizz.. if can, i want her to quit her job now n rest @ home but wat to do... nothing can be done...

my dad => for him, i just hope that he will listen to us for once and go back to werk @ his previous job with my uncle.. please throw yr stubbornness away for the sake of our family... let bygone be bygone... no point remembering what had happened in the past... y i plead with him to go back to his previous job? firstly because he is not getting young any more.. having to pack and carry tons of heavy oil here n there is not right for him..his health is not that good too... secondly, his current job is "crazy".. sometime got job, sometime don have... no job means no $$... and that's y my mum have to werk hard..

To 2006: Please bring lots of happiness to our family.. improve our family situation to be a better one... no more the likes of 2005...

My azam for 2006: To excel in my studies... to learnt to cook more dishes... to make my family more happier... to make dar more happier and to love him even more...

Updated@1:22 PM

JanLez's is back again... seems like, nowadays, i have been blogging like once a week? hehe... bz ar.. actually, i feel kinda lazy wanna update my blog.. muakaha... i just follow my heart.. if i feel like updating, i will update.. if not, i will just leave it like that...


Was out with dar to celebrate something special.. went to town and it was packed... but nevetheless, we enjoyed our selves =) we walked all the way from shaw house area to heeren there, following the lights... we were one of those victims that kena sprayed by anoymous people in the public using the spray can... khahah... even old uncles were not spared either... thier face, hair, clothes, everywhere was covered with the the "strings"... i was surprised that they did not scold them.. i guess because of the festive mood... so they were spared.. hehe... as usual, we singgah sekejap @ arcade as part of our daily routine place that we must go... haha... not bad.. he overpowered me in most of the games... he is improving as time goes by, which is a bad news to me.. hmm, seems like i have to improve myself... ni tak leh jadi ni...


A solemn day for me as well as the rest of my frends who noe Normah.... her mum had passed away on the day... my condolonces to u and yr family. me and the rest of them were down on both sun and mon to help her out with some stuffs... quite sad to see her on the 25th esp in the evening but was relieved to see her back to normal on the next day... one thing that i learnt from this is that having a good relationship with your relatives are very important esp when it comes to this kind of things... i will not say y this is important but i tink those who attend the funeral will no y.

Semoga Allah memcucuri ke atas rohnya. Amin


went tour ard SP conducted by dar... muakhaha... his skool was damn big.. if i go n explore alone, nampak2nya, tak balik lah Jannah hari wed tu.. entah sesat ke mana aje... hehe... we went to almost every one of the blk and there were some stories behind certain blk... kinda scary but i believe every skool have that kind of stories...

after that, spent the rest of our time with "art & craft" activities.. muakhaha... a gift from dar.... can say that we had done that during our childhood daes.... like what he said, it involves creativity and hands on... a pity i forget to ask him to take a photo of what we had done.. if not can upload here to share with u guys...


hmm... i guess that all for now... skool gonna open next week.. NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Updated@10:41 AM

bonjour!! pardon me for been missing from blogging.. khaha... the past few days had been a great day... firstly because i finally and at last managed to get an intervewee for my project... hooray!!! *yeah* finding an intervewee is not that easy for me... a total of 3 intervew request from 3 different people were lead to dissapointment for me... very depressing as time goes by... but i am really glad that i manage to get one in the end.. never endless support from my family and dar makes me work harder to find one and in the end, the effort finally paid off *hooray*

alrite enough about that... my skool open hse will be held @ our new wld campus from 14 - 17 January 2006... and the duty roaster for my SA were out... will be down for duty on 14, 16 & 17.. 16 & 17 will be a full day coz secodary skool students will be coming down..... will be the tour guide.. tak habis2 jadi tour guide... then on the 14 will be half day only... on the 14, the job will be quite easy coz i will be managing a booth and taking charge for the children's competition.. was quite schocked to see that i was been make as an I/C.. but nevertheless... i am quite happy.. khahaa...

mon was out with my bro to town... tue was @ home n yesterday was out with dar... as usual, it was fun n fabulous.... met Mdm Kalysiah n Zhuying... dah lama tak nampak dorg... wonder wat is Mdm Kaly is doing rite now?? is she still actively in NPCC? hmm.. aniwae, when i looked @ her, i remember the time during NPCC life where the whole lots of them will disturb me esp Sir Chong Liang as her sister coz we look a like untill was given this name => Kaly's Junior... haha...


To Nenek & Rizal: Pasal outing tu, it will be next week... but i really need yr cooperation (chey cooperation seh.. muakaha) korg nak 1 whole dae kat satu tempat (eg: Sentosa) ataupun go from one place to another (eg: gi main bowling, then pool, etc)?? tag me asap!!!!! once settle, i will spread the news to the rest of the "monyems"... thank q for yr cooperation =)

Updated@5:59 PM

i suddenly got the feeling to play SOCCER, CATCHING & BADMINTON!!!

soccer?? the last time i played soccer if i not wrong was February this year... that time was having this MINDS competition in collabaration with my skool and MINDS... sweet memories because my team became the champion.. 10 mths nv played soccer... oh man.... miss it sooo muchhh... how i wish i can play it rite now... how i wish i was back in secondary skool for PE... how i wish.. how i wish....

catching?? i suddenly got the urge to play catching after i happened to look out @ my window just now and saw this group of people (shld be ard primary 6 or sec 1) running under the blk, shouting here n there.. when i looked @ them, immediately it started to have flashback on my secondary skool life in sec 5... playing catching in class... stepping on the table.. shouting like mad person, and almost get caught by Mr Ng and Mr Jana.. haha... then got once i played catching under the blk with the likes of zhuying, karen, quek, syed, apao, edmund, bengkiat, gopi... we hide @ some of the level in the massioniate hse n waited for the the catcher to hunt us.... muakaha.. life was much more fun in the past... how i wish... how i wish...

badminton?? the last time i played was before fasting month.. in fact that one, almost every week i played with rizal, nenek and sue... got once, people like arina, lela n normah came down to play with us too... rizal, nenek, sue => bile nak main??... how i wish.. how i wish...

Updated@4:37 PM

haizz... the email that i have been waiting for since last Wed tak sampai2... i really hope that he can reply me asap coz it is concerning my project werk.. the faster he reply, the faster i can start my werk... haizz... n look @ me now.. betapa bosan nya diriku....

today i am left alone @ home with my daddy.. but later will be going out with my mummy after she come back from werk.. *yeah* both my brothers were out.. one to rock climbing activity and the other to orchard to meet up with his friends.. today dar also went out for his bbq thingy... miz him lah n insyallah will be meeting him this coming wed... he just start his holiday today.. *yippie* rizal also start his holidae... though of wanna organise an outing for the whole lots of us but not sure when the rest are having their holidae.. nenek sae got holiday but not sure wen... hmm... [To Nenek: If you know when is yr holiday, tell me ok? Thanks]

To my special one:

Updated@3:03 PM

Just like in life, if Life is Water, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold/maintain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change." "If we only concentrate on the cup, we won't have time to enjoy/taste the water in it."

The best way to prepare for life is to begin to live.

- Elbert Hubbard -

Updated@2:01 PM

argh!!! i am sooo sad... weaver's finish 3rd... sob sob sob..... i am sad not because they finished 3rd but because they did so well in the starting part but they lose their lead @ this particular stop which resulted them to 3rd placing till the end... so frustrating!!! the final position goes like these: Linz, Bransen, Weaver... Dar, i hate u lah... firstly because of the link that u asked me to read yesterdae and secondly, today result... happy lah u, linz finished 1st BUT out score remained a tie => 2 - 2... so nobody win or lose... muakahah... thank god it's draw... *phew*

alrite, yesterday i sent out an email to this person that i wanna interview... i am waiting patiently for him to reply me back.. and i am hoping that it will be a good news... and once i get the green light.. i am going to start werk immediately.. no more delay...

Updated@12:40 PM

I happened to come across and read 2 articles in Today's paper that makes me wonder and ponder for a while...

The first want is about "When a baby has a stroke". It never ever come across to my mind that baby can suffer stroke. I thought only adults suffered that but not babies...Does it ever come across to your mind? Well, this article goes like this:

"It looked like a seizure when little Alexzandra Gonzales jerked and when limp, barely breathing. A frantic race to the hospital led to a diagnosis her parents found hard to believe: Just days before her 1st birthday, she had a stroke" => The doctor aren't sure what caused Alexzandra's stroke but she is indeed lucky because her parents raced her to the hospital fast. Is there any babies in Singapore suffered like that? hmm.. I am not really sure...

Alrite, the second article was about this Japanese guy who kills his dad for a merely 100 Yen which is in Singapore, $1.40!!!!! OMG!!!!!! i cant believe this wen i read this.. wat the hell was he doing?? killing yr dad for $1.40!!! he is really a one lunatic guy.... haizz.. i tink he is not the only guy to have done that... i believe there were several cases out there that happened slightly the same as this..... wat is happening to the people in this world??

Updated@7:52 PM

i change my skin.. khaha... i happened to pass by one website in the afternoon and suddenly this cutie winnie the pooh caught my attention... so wat else, i use them lah... download them and make use of the rest of my afternoon to edit my blog... *yeah* its quite cute, just like the owner.. *oops* *wink*

Updated@7:50 PM

morning peepz :) ok.. yesterdae had a quite a fun dae... ard 2pm went to meet him... went ard my area and we chit chat for a while... then headed to the kfc for some air conditioning.. khaha.. in there, we played a game that's it quite interesting and fun.. so now, we know each other more. *yeah* i am quite surprised that he remember the exact time for the that particular memorable event... hmm... *thumbs up*

went ard JP after that as to kill time off before me heading to meet my family for a dae @ Night Safari... my bro brought us there... coz he say he can get a discount since he was an ex-staff there.. or maybe he say, free entrance if his frend is werking @ the ticket counter.. but unfortunately, his frend was not there but nvm, at least get half price for the ticket... wen we went in there, its quite pack.. alot of tourists from various countries were there... our first stop was @ the animal photography.. my bro noe them so i was given the priority.. khahah.. took pic with 2 animals.. look like a cat but its not a cat... don noe lah wat animal.. the other want... with a snake... khaha... i don noe y i suddenly become brave.... i nv felt anything.. nv felt scared or watever... hehe... then we took the tram to view the animals in there... [To dar: sorry, haha, none of my frend was there... serious, i am not lying =) but i saw one of yr frend.. hehe]

halfway we stopped and decided to walk to view some more animals inside... since my bro werk there b4, he was familiarise with the route, etc.. so its quite easy for us.. the funny part was there were this two old caucasians couple, kept following us... everywhere we go, they followed.. membotok aje... i tink they scared lost or wat ar... then u noe ar, my dad don really speak gd english.. basic2 can ar.. then they tok to my dad about the animals in there.. dah mcm ayam ngan itik berbual.. my mum and my bro cant stop laughing... my bro met his frends for awhile.. suddenly they come out, they brought snake... i carried the snake again.. but this snake, a bit smaller then the 1st that i hold.. i nv forget to smell the snake.. muakhahha... that's my habit... then go view the animal show, which was not bad either... continuing walking n we decided to go back home coz my mum tired already.. aniwae, she is werking today.. but before that, we watched this org asli performing, with all the fire stunts, etc... and also bought ice-cream there.. quite ex but after discount, its better... the ice cream was sooo nice.... with the crunchy waffle bottom.. fuyoh!!!! its worth the $$....

overall, both outing yesterdae was fun n great.

Updated@11:57 AM

hehe.. ok ziera.. kau jgn ckp aku burung hantu eh... aku dah ckp ngan kau.. kata anak dara.. mesti bangun pagi2.. muakaha *wink*

alamak, i just relealised that my Mohabattein and Ikhlas will be clashing with each other this sun!! same time start somemore!!! oh man!! wich want to watch?? i cannot miss my mohabattein coz it is my fav hindi show!!! and Iklhas?? hmm.. also cannot miss coz saw @ the advertisement that most of the top singers and ppl will be going to perform.. hmm... ok, was thinking, 90% confirm ikhlas got repeat want... then mohabattein once it show, 90% don not weter it gonna show again or not... but can still buy the tape.. so... my decision is... i haven make any decisions yet!!! khahaha

so fast 1 week gonna gone just like dat... hmm... wat i had been doing for the past 5 days?? hmm.. nothing much... sit @ home, making notes, games, net, go out, house werk... that's it... sometime boring.. sometime no.. so ok2 lah my 1st week of holi.... i am quite tense up with my project werk!! ergh!!! wen ever i tink of it, i will be nervous, scare and keep counting on the number of mths left before the deadline.. shit!!! haizz.. but wenever i asked my fellow frends about their project n wen i heard that they also like me, i feel abit relax.. @ least i noe that i am not alone.. muakahha *yeah*

ok, that's all for now... later will be going out.. uhuhu... see u later (to that person i am meeting *wink*) have a gd morning n enjoy yr weekends. adiaoz!!!!

Updated@7:14 AM

yeah i change my chatter box.. hehe... since new year is coming, was thinking to myself weter shld i revamp my entire blog? hmm.. if i do, it will be quite troublesome coz have to think of the design.. somemore, muz spent time again to rebuild the entire blog again. *thinking* see how lah.. if i wanna change, then i change.. if not, i will jsut stick with this...

alrite, yesterdae went out with my dearest cousin, Minah.. khaha... kecoh kluar ngan dia... but its fun to have her as a company... our first destination was JP Macdonald... first of all, me welcome her to the world of blogging.. muakaha.. actually went to mac to teach her some basis stuff of blogging... yes, she finally created one blog for herself... but there are still alot of things that need to be put in.. and i guess she noe how to do it *wink* but wen we reached there, we nv immediately started our werk.. hehe.. we started talking for about an hour.. khaha.. padahal baru jumpa last sun.. that's y i said, no matter how many times we meet, confirm got something to talk about... khaha...

after done with our werk, we headed to Mama Esah stall @ beach road.. nv been there before.. so asked her to bring me ard there.. she like my tour guide like dat.. haha... after that, went for window shopping and headed home by bus... the lights for the christmas are all up and its soo nice and colorful... hmm.. muz go to orchard one day to see the lights...

To Minah: kau kla ada apa2 problem sal blog kau, msg aku alrite.. enjoy the world of blogging :) and yes one more thing... this link (http://cbox.ws/index.php) is for yr chat box => u follow the instruction there to create a chat box.. quite simple.. have fun =)

Updated@6:05 PM

the time now is 0656am to be exact... cant sleep so might else well, go n bath n start my blogging!! khaha... actually, woke up @ 0335am to watch my soccer match => Man Utd Vs Benfica.. haizz... they lose the match by 2-1.. that means that Man Utd are out of the champion league!! to be exact also, they are last in the table... *sob3*.... no comment about their performance except that what i can said is they had done thier altermost best... since they are out of this chammpion league.. go n concentrate on yr EPL... make sure u catch up on the arrogant Chelsea!!!!

ok, so like what i sae in my previous post... yesterdae sent pak hitam to the vet for sterilization... it as if noe that we gonna bring him to the vet... he was very reluctant to come with us especially when we wanna put him in the cage.. in the end we managed BUT that's not the end!! upon reaching downstair, @ my bustop there to wait for a cab.. problem started to occur.. guess what... out of sudden, i saw something flying out of the cage.. who else if not pak hitam!!?? the 3 of us were stunned for a moment + with the rest of the onlookers who were there nearby.. lucky for us.. he did not run onto the road or jumped into the big drain nearby.. if not.. wawawualam...

so appointment were delayed as we had to go back home again to fix the cage back (actually cannot fix already coz the door and the handle broke.. so pandai2 lah kite ikat2 tu benda) pak hitam had to stay there for awhile, so we go back first before picking him back ard 2pm... kesian tengok dia... reached home, he was like blur2 like that... walked also not stable.. maybe due to the medicine that was given to him... hehe... aniwae.. our job for the dae is done!! *yippie*

in the afternoon, met him for dinner @ IMM... uhuhu... as usual, we "warm up" first @ our favourite hangout @ JE Ent... what else if not arcade!!!! tada!!!! then we chill @ ice hockey there.. counting the number of ppl falled down, etc... crazy sia but kinda fun... muakahah.. then proceed on to IMM for our dinner... as usual, didnt ate much... then suddenly the both of us received an sms from suevester about this bra thingy... khaha... we reply the same thing but the answer tat we gave her was damn funny and the ans she replied us also funny!!! muakaha.. dah ambik tahta pamela.. muakahah...

walked ard for awhile and then headed home.. overall outing was great =) but before I forget.. its about the amazaing race... haha.. didnt manage to watch both the telecast but i noe the result.. thank god my weaver team is still in the race which means they, bransen and linz are in the race for the top spot next week... desperate hsw (godlewski) was been eliminated... sorry dar... i won... so the score is 2 - 1.. khahah... *yeah*.... but now he support linz, my team enemy... *hmmph* cant wait for next week amazing race... lets pray that weaver will finish before linx (it does not matter the postition as long as weaver came in before linz) muakaha...

alrite.. i tink my entry is too long.. hehe.. i stop here for now.. later will be meeting Minah for our activities.. yeah2!!.. alrite... more updates to come (insyallah kla tak bz.. hehe) stay tuned =)

Updated@7:19 AM

todae my first dae of holidae.. uhuhuu... no plan for todae.. tomorrow also.. but i tink will be staying @ home for both of the dae... wanna make notes for my module... long time nv do my notes and now it is piling up... imagine from my week 4 to my week 9 notes for all the module.. haizz.. but wednesday yes... insyallah, if goes as plan, will be bringing pak hitam to the vet for sterelization with my bro's... khahaha.... that's the end of yr manhood.. hehehe... then in the afternoon will be meeting someone for dinner.. yippie!!!

so yesterdae was @ kak zai hse for her wedding since morning... as usual, met minah and we talk from the time we met till the time when i am going back home... imagine how long we talk?? khaha... untill abg sharin tegur us sia saying " korg dua pada tadi berbual rancak je.. tak stop2 pada tadi...".. then my cousin said, " mestilah.. kite org bukannya jumpa selalu.." its true... but i tink ar if we meet as often also, we confirm will talk as long as that.. muakahah... that's how close we are =)

one of the topics that we were discussing was something about our life.. her life and my life... surprisingly, she know about what happened to me.. Kak Irah also... and surprisingly also, they get it rite over something.. hmm.. was wondering hoe they know... but unfortunately, Kak Irah get the rong person.. haha.... but i tink she noe it by now... since minah got something to disturb me, i also got something to disturb her, all thanks to someone.. khahaha.. her's was more hot!!! hehehe... we also make a fool of ourselves.. hehe.. u c, we heard the kompang and we thought that was the groom for outside.. so leaving our job (delivering satay to n for), we quickly headed to the direction of the kompang... as we reached near them, to our horror, its not the groom for ourside coz he was wearing a pink baju whereas for ourside, it shld be blue!! haha.. wat a blunder we make!!!

met Ilya and Alya yesterdae and saturday.. seriously speaking, if only i can bring them back home especially Ilya, i wont let them go man!!!! (abis Iza mengamok!!! muakahaha)

To Minah: kau kasi aku the date when you free, then i check it our with my scheduel to see when I am free for our blogging activities.. hehe... and btw... one day, we go out together alrite?? aku nak gi kedai Mama Esa ar.. aku tak penah pegi.. lagipun aku tak tahu kedai dia mana satu except for i noe it is @ beach road.. hehe.. so kite pegi eh one dae?? anything, msg me..

Updated@2:39 PM

bonjour!!! its been a few days since i update my bloggy... been quite bz... with all my skool stuffs... daily life, etc.. and not becoz of that ar (nenek n zal shld noe what i meant!!!!) *hmmph*

alrite.. after seeing the doc on tue.. my appetiate seems to improve a bit... my stomach had begin accepting the food one @ a time, which is a gd sign.. hoewever, my mum say still not gd enough.. must eat somemore.. haizz... klah2... i try my bez....

yeah, finally holiday have arrive.. uhuhuhu.... but i tink cant really enjoy myself to the max coz still need to do my that stupid project.. ergh.... had difficutly finding another interviewer for my project after the previous one failed... i hav quite a number of people in mind but the thing is that, i find it difficult to search for thier background in the internet.. hmm... quite funny because they are quite popular person... it the problem lies in the way i type in the search engine?? hmm... possible but i don think so... muakahah... aniwae.. nvm.. i will try again.. cannot give up... must keep on trying... *yeah*

later will be going to kak Zai hse for her nikah.. tomorrow will be her big day... congrats man... cant wait to meet up my dearest cousin, Minah.. sure got alot of things to talk about.. hehe... though of going up the hse to view the nikah but my mum said gals are not allow to view it coz nanti jodoh lambat... last 2 yrs wen my another kak saudara married, me n my dearest cousin went up to view it but unfortunately, we kena shouted from my aunt for viewing it... haha... org dulu.. byk pantang larang.. hmm... i wanna view it lah but haizz.. see how.. later plan with my dearest cousin on it... worst come to worst... we sneak thorugh... muakahaha....

alrite.. that's all for now... tc.. have a great weekend and adiaoz...

TO NENEK & RIZAL: NAH AMBIK NI!!! AKU DAH UPDATE!!!! NANNY2 POO2!!!!!

Updated@1:20 PM