Saturday, December 31, 2005
In less than 12 hours time, a new year will arrive... indeed, 2005 have left me with lots of memories.. be it memorable or not... the good memories will of course i remember.. as for the bad one, of course not to remember it again n hopefully it will not haunt me in the future..2005 have a lot of ups and downs for me as well as my family... there isnt much happiness in our family.. i just hope that whatever happened in 2005 will not happen again to my family in 2006.. i just cant bear to see it again.. it soo heart wreaking to see the condition of my family esp during this year hari raya.. as for the ties among us, i hope that the relationship between our family will improve significantly.. my 2 brothers => may they find peace among them..i noe hari raya puasa for 2006 is quite far away but i got the feeling that its gonna be better than 2005... with my elder bro having a full time job for now and having something assure in his pocket, we don need to worry bout that "problem".. my relatives had been a great help to us esp mak ngah and family and mak jang... without them, i don noe wat will happen to us.. thank u to them...my mum => she has been working damn hard for us... mon to sun.. even holidays she work... sometimes 12 hours even... she don even have time to rest... she every time told me how hard her werk was, how she endure the pain in her leg, her whole body to be exact.. as her only daughter, what i can do is to help her massage her, attend to her needs, help out with housewerk... that's all i can do to help release her burden.. really heart breaking to see her slogging her way to meet end needs.. sometimes i even quarrel with her which i really regretted... i noe she is doing all this for our family... she told us that she will only quit her job after we 3 have start werking and have a stable income.. then she will have a very good rest n enjoy her old days.. but that will be in few years time.. which means she will have to continue werking for the next few years.. haizz.. if can, i want her to quit her job now n rest @ home but wat to do... nothing can be done... my dad => for him, i just hope that he will listen to us for once and go back to werk @ his previous job with my uncle.. please throw yr stubbornness away for the sake of our family... let bygone be bygone... no point remembering what had happened in the past... y i plead with him to go back to his previous job? firstly because he is not getting young any more.. having to pack and carry tons of heavy oil here n there is not right for him..his health is not that good too... secondly, his current job is "crazy".. sometime got job, sometime don have... no job means no $$... and that's y my mum have to werk hard..To 2006: Please bring lots of happiness to our family.. improve our family situation to be a better one... no more the likes of 2005... My azam for 2006: To excel in my studies... to learnt to cook more dishes... to make my family more happier... to make dar more happier and to love him even more...FORGET the Past, ENJOY the Present, INDULGE in the Future
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